Wednesday, April 25, 2012

"WHY" do I sing?

I've had so many people ask me lately, how I've gotten to this point and why I would want to be here. So I thought I'd give a little bit of background, so there are not any misconceptions, assumptions and misinterpretations on my story. So every Wednesday, I am going to write a little about "Why", and "What" brought me to "Where" I am. So let's name them "WHY? WHAT? WHERE? WEDNESDAYS". Does tha sound good?? Great! ;)

First of all, I have ALWAYS loved good music. My Mom, ironically name me after a beauty queen she knew when she was in college because she loved that she was so poised, beautiful and graceful.  I was the 'shy one' as a child though, socially backward and 'not' the singer or musician of the family by far, or at least I thought. Growing up my older brother, Lucas, sang and then my younger sister Kimberly had the voices and I was just there to watch and give them praise. As time went on though, I realized, I loved and wanted some kind of music for myself and although my Mom talked about having me take piano lessons someday, nothing was ever followed through with. It wasn't until I was in 5th and saw the Orchestra and band from the 6th grade center perform at our elementary school that I decided to take matters into my own hands. I remember asking my Mom if I could sign up and she quickly shot me down but I was so determined that I filled out the elective card anyway and forged her signature, (so bad I know) but as I look back I realize I don't know where I'd be today if I hadn't, finally, stood up for myself!!

I remember her face too, when I brought home my first violin from school. She was MAD and completely put out!! Please don't think ill of my Mom though, she didn't know any better, she was only thinking about the time and the money, and my Mom and Dad both worked. So she was just upset because I just added to her plate of 'things to do and worry about' and I went behind their backs. Anyway, my Dad on the other hand laughed and said, "good for you" and said he couldn't wait till I could play well. A couple weeks later he was so excited that he actually went downtown and purchased my first violin for me. I still have that old violin. :)

As time went on and I began playing in the Orchestra, I still yearned for something more. As fate would have it I came upon an ad about 'free' modeling and talent workshops for the Cinderella Youth Scholarship Program, which were free but they wanted to get you involved in their 'pageant' program while you were there. Anyway, after talking and pleading with my Mom, she finally conceded, paid the $75 entry fee and let me compete. I did pretty well my first time but I soon found out I had a LONG way to go before I was really able to win one.

Let me just say too, these programs are not the ones you all see on TV. They are more 'talent and personality' based and we did not have to wear swimsuits on stage or any other skimpy outfits. Which I was thankful for and made sense to me, considering my standards and being LDS.

After years and years of trying and struggling to find my niche in the "pageant world". I realized after the state competition one year, that my talent of playing classical violin was not doing it for me (or the judges for that matter), so I decided to change it up a bit and play a fiddle piece for the talent portion of the competition. Then after watching the tapes of state competiotion, I realized that wasn't enough and  I need a little more than that to get their attention so I decided to sing a country song, as well as fiddle. Little did I know, this decision and brave ambition, would change my life forever....

Below are a few pictures of me as child and a teenager, that I thought you might enjoy....;)

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